Moving On

Things around here have been crazy the last couple months.

I started one job while the kids were in school but it was retail and the hours were all over the board and unreliable and the pay was peanuts, so I began looking for another part-time job...which I started this past week.

With job #2, the pay is excellent, the hours are abundant and completely regular and let's just say that it is kind of a cushy job. I mean, not that it isn't challenging - I am at the end of my 2nd week of training and feel like I have been in school for like a month. But I dress up and I have ahem, "banker's hours".

I am working for a credit union so there is a lot to learn and I am really enjoying it. I have had plans to go back to school, and I still plan on doing that, I just may take a little more time with this job first. We'll see. Who knows where God is leading us!

I just know that right now, I am very comfortable with where He has led me....to move on from my dream of having more children and into His will - and being the best mother I can to the children I already have. Which in my case comes down to working in order to help pay for the education we have chosen for our children, and other quality of life choices we have made and will continue to make as the years go on. I am comfortable with this new path I am on. Finally comfortable. Finally feeling as though I am where I am supposed to be.

Does that mean that I don't sometimes ache for the babies we have lost? Or that I don't still long to have another sweet babe inside my womb? No, friend, the longing is there. But the calling is not. I am at peace.

This is what I have been called to and I am at peace.